Patience…..

First, exciting news about Living Proof for everyone waiting to see the film. At the Q and A following the film last night, Matt Embry confirmed that Living Proof does have a definite major carrier (cannot be announced yet) and the film will be available eventually on DVD, these were answer’s to questions asked last night. After which, the emcee from the Calgary Film Festival, in regards to when will the film be available, quipped something like this, “Let the man get a night of sleep, first.” That got a laugh. Like a very good movie, seeing the film a second time, I saw details I hadn’t taken in the first time that made the documentary even better. I am making a very big deal out of this film because it packs a wallop and it effectively calls a spade a spade! It is direly needed and it will make headway. Finally, the Calgary Film Festival has an award for Audience Favourites of which, as of now, Living Proof is second place in the documentary category! There were some final showings of other films today. They will make announcements tonight at the festival Award’s Party for each category.

As for me, I’m a little overwhelmed. I’m having the speed problem again. My brain is fired up and going a mile a minute, so is my mouth. Can’t shut up. I love the energy, just mad at myself that I’m going through this twice. I wrote about this a ways back as I adjusted to being in Ketosis and it was subsiding and I was adjusting, then, as I’ve written, due to the complicated events over the course of three weeks, I was not able to stay strict ONLY with Wahls Paleo Plus level III, I didn’t leave the diet, only the Ketosis. Can’t let that happen again, because your body goes through quite a transformation as it settles into Ketosis. It can’t be good, to be in and out of Ketosis like that. Plus, this speedy crap sucks! I feel like I am most probably driving everyone around me nuts. But, they love me and have graciously demonstrated support in a hundred different ways. I’m so grateful to everyone. I’ll be honest (because I promised to), I began writing that sentence and I burst into tears, that took me by surprise.

I thought about working today. Honestly, I think about working everyday. I am beginning to put a toe in the water, just to begin getting this and that in place. I looked up how to get my college transcripts today. I’ll apply for it next week, there is a complicated situation there that I will tell you about another day. I looked up jobs in Calgary, just to get a feel for what that is looking like. And, I took out my resume, to begin to think about how best to update it. That’s three big steps. Of course this morning, when I had tons more energy, I was ready to start working today. Then tonight, I realize, each step has its own merit and builds on the one before. T-I-M-E I want to succeed and that means carefully doing this in a timely manner and thinking it through to be sure I don’t jump at it and end up somewhere I can’t handle. The feeling of “chomping at the bit” is building. That’s a good thing, I am a go-getter, but I could easily screw this up if I grab for the ring too fast.

 

Patience……Good things come to those who wait!

 

Bonne Sante

 

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Yay, feeling better!

The cramping is over! And the spasticity is subsiding. I still have bloating, but my sinuses have dried up. You wouldn’t think that cheaper foods could cause such havoc, but after eating better for five months, my body reacted badly to it. It just strengthens my resolve to be strict. I mentioned in the last couple of blogs how I’ve been sick, about five days now, from a culmination of cheap meat, almost no organic vegetables and not taking digestive supplements which really are crucial. That coupled with off and on Ketosis, causing the Ketosis flu which is a need for Potassium, Sodium and Magnesium. I ran into these problems because I am on disability, which means, I don’t have a lot to spend, leaving no room for financial mishap or error. This diet is more than double the cost for groceries, that which includes only some of the supplements recommended. I have to rigidly juggle my expenses, which I have done successfully for five months, but the carpal tunnel surgery, a convention I attended and overspending on supplements and an event caused me to have to cut way back on spending for food and supplements. Suffice it to say, that won’t happen again, if its within my control. I stayed compliant, in that I didn’t have dairy, gluten or sugar (a minuscule amount in sauces at the convention). It was rather, the lack of supplements needed for this diet and cheap meat (that was the worst I think).

Right now, I am finally feeling better and even danced earlier to Jeff Beck. If you know 1970’s Jeff Beck, then you know that that man had a lot of funk in his music, especially the albums Wired and There and Back, both of which featured Jan Hammer. Jan Hammer who was originally with the Mahavishnu Orchestra and after his years with Jeff Beck, later went on to write and perform the award winning music for Miami Vice. Okay, the trivia break is over.

An important component to my staying the course is imagery. I see myself going back to work and succeeding in six months. I see myself regaining my driver’s license in one year. I see myself owning a car in one and half years. Everyday, I am getting more flexible, stronger, more balanced. I do still tip a lot, but have no doubt that too will come with time, patience and hard work. All of this is hard work. It is a commitment. But, one that pays and pays and pays.

I bought another ticket for the final showing of Living proof in Calgary to accompany a friend, to be supportive and for another shot of inspiration in the arm (that never hurts). Everything is still up in the air with e-stim. One of the physical therapy rehabs I had spoke with before is in the same building as where I exercise. I am going to talk to them tomorrow and see if I can get this attended to so that I can begin……finally!

 

Bonne Sante

 

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Advertising and My Blog

It is because of two 100% not commercialized organizations, both of which saved my life for two different reasons and during two different periods in my life that I sit here writing this blog at all. I’ve learned that the truth must remain untainted and that only happens when money for personal gain is kept out of it. When it is time for me to return to work because this lifestyle is leading me in that eventual direction, it will not be this blog or public speaking this message that will be making me a profit. My work on this blog will be in addition to what I do to earn my living. The work I do on the blog and any other way I can carry this message to others will have spiritual merits that far outweigh any money I could mar this with.

Why so strict? Because I’ve many lessons in my life about the power of an unconditional message. Once ads are floating all around it, it becomes mired in other motives and then I can’t take it seriously anymore. I’m not talking about books and media developed by the writer, orator, or producer carrying the message as cheaply as possible so that they aren’t bankrupt carrying the message, I’m all for necessary expenses being covered, such as travel expenses for the speaker by the sponsors of the event or a decent book charge to cover the expense of everything it takes to publish and distribute a book. That’s not what I am talking about at all. I’m talking about side bar ads, pop up ads, google ads, or worse, excepting money from pharmaceutical companies, which would be like Alcoholics Anonymous being funded by Anheuser-Busch, etc. Further would be overcharging for media and services. I can’t take the messenger seriously when I see that. I’ve seen selfless acts of carrying this particular message by highly educated people for nothing. Both Producer Matt Embry’s website MSHope and his father, Geologist Dr. Ashton Embry’s direct-ms.org are both 100% non profit. Dr. Embry’s site is dedicated to using 95% of all funds collected to support CCSVI research. Because we all know we need more medical providers who understand this lifestyle and the science behind it. So, if the Powers that be would have it, the care of which will eventually be covered by the mainstream medical models and then made available to all of us straight from their doctors, how nice would that be. In the mean time, we must be our own doctors, researchers and advocates.

Dr. Wahls research began with Dr. Embry’s. Dr. Embry researched the diet correlation between nutrition and MS and put his son on the diet straight away in 1996 and he realized a connection between vitamin D and MS in 2001 as did Dr. Coimbra across the world in Brazil, around the same time (see research and web sites page).  All of this takes lots of proof. And because these holistic methods do not make certain billion dollar companies money and threaten half their profit and they currently have the power, it is an uphill battle that will not be won easily. But, steadfast, one day at a time, meticulous reporting and research. And pure, unfettered motives. Don’t get me wrong, we are all human, we will all be tempted (“Luke, come to the dark side.”) and we will all screw up or some of us will find the climb too hard and quit.

If I want to be taken seriously, I must document honestly, good and bad about myself, I must tell about my successes and my set backs and there can be no profit motive or this record won’t be worth much. That is how I feel, that is the person I’ve always been. I’m up for the challenge! How about you?!

On a personal recovery note: I am still sick. Its in my intestines. I am feeling better after three decent meals last night and today. I bought some good digestive enzymes and I drank Kombucha tea (1/2 cup) and am taking probiotic capsules to help right the upset. To deal with Ketosis flu symptoms till I get on top of that again, I’m adding Magnesium and extra salt. Trying to eat more fish, spinach and almonds. It is all helping.

One final note: I was lucky to have an Ethics Professor who taught Ethics for 30 years at Harvard, I got him when he chose to teach part time after retiring at my small Maine University. I remember him saying, “Where are the young’s voices in regards to oppression and corruption as they were in the 60’s?” Well, this is a worthy movement and were all sober, well I am!

 

Bonne Sante

 

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Living Proof Review

Living Proof was as good as I thought it would be. It did receive enthusiastic applause at its conclusion and many good questions were asked during the Q and A. I had the chance to say thank you to Dr. Ashton Embry for all his forthright work which made this possible for me and to Matt Embry for inspiring me and being supportive. I won’t describe the documentary, except to say this, it is part biography, Matt Embry’s (the film maker and Dr. Ashton Embry’s son) about his diagnosis of MS, part expose, of the MS society and the medical industries, both of which are in bed with the pharmaceutical companies and part hope, that there is an answer in lifestyle discipline of diet, exercise, vitamin D and stress management. The filming was great, it was well done. It was on the list to be included for voting for awards. I gave it a 5 as I am sure most in the audience did. There is one more showing, a third added after the first two sold out. They still have tickets for Saturday, September 30 at 9:30 pm showing at The Globe Theater. Buy tickets online by googling “Living Proof Calgary Film Festival”. Global distribution is in the works.

For me, I was not well this morning, but am doing better tonight. Good thing, for a time, I wasn’t sure I’d be able to attend tonight. I bought cheap fatty hamburger to get through the rest of the month and ate it four days in a row. I have been buying grass fed beef or bison from the natural market, but couldn’t afford it the way this month has been going financially. Did I pay for that. Stomach cramps, bloating, nose running, ugh, the worst was the spasticity and weakness coming back. I get to start next month tomorrow and will have money in the bank. First thing is grocery shopping, starting with the natural market.

Tomorrow I want to talk about websites and blogs that are inundated with advertising and popups galore. My promise to you, this blog will never be used to generate money, no ad will ever find its way here.

 

Bonne Sante

The Fountain of Youth

Went to exercise this morning. I had some weakness revisit me today and some spasticity come back at night too. I have got to get back into a routine for my Ketosis diet, between the conference, lack of money and the surgery, its really thrown me. For the most part I’ve stayed compliant to the best of my ability with all of this, but, the conference did cause me to eat some foods that were not ideal, the surgery caused me to fall out of routine and habit, and the short funds caused me to not take the supplements I really need to take (ran out and haven’t replenished) and I’ve relied on sub par foods, like cheap meats and mostly non-organic foods. I’ve fallen out of ketosis three times because of these three successive situations. I felt the long term ramifications of this today. Smarten up they say, paradoxically, Living Proof is tomorrow night. Good, I need a good motivator. Not that I’m anywhere near quitting. I’m not, not at all. I need to be very strict with my schedule, no surgeries, no conferences and a tight and micromanaged control on my money, which is what made me successful the first five months. There, other than that, I’m back in beginning ketosis, meaning, flu and sleepiness again till acclimate again. That’s the biggest reason to be very strict with my regime. This bouncing in and out of Ketosis isn’t good.

Reading, I thought about reading the book many times today, didn’t happen, but I did think about it 25 times or more. Tomorrow is a very busy day, so busy that I found it necessary to cancel my scheduled workout tomorrow. People coming over, then to the movie, I need my morning free to get things done and be rested for tomorrow night. It will be necessary to wait in line for an hour to be sure to sit together. This is advanced sales and unassigned seating. This theater is in a Mall, so that is helpful. We can take turns walking in the mall and holding our place in the line. I spoke briefly today with someone higher up in the Calgary Film Festival, because I couldn’t get a human on the phone in any other way to ask how early we should arrive tomorrow. I ended with her answering machine and she did call me back which impressed me greatly. She was gracious and accommodating. I told her that we had figured out our game plan, turns out one of our friends attending tomorrow is very familiar with the festival and the cinema. When I mentioned it was Living Proof we were attending, she said, “Boy, that’s a popular one!” That was great to hear.

One more thing, most of my life, I’ve been told I look younger than I am, its been a constant. Except for the last six or seven years. I crossed that invisible line into, well, invisible. But, not so the last month. I’ve heard repeatedly from people about my looks and mistaking me for a much younger person. So, if anyone is looking for the Fountain of Youth, look no further, this is it.

Just now, I got a call back from the coordinator for the Festival who went way out of her way to help me with the line tomorrow. I did say earlier that we figured it all out and were all set, but she said don’t worry. I did say that I have MS and I just needed to know what to expect with waiting times. She set it up so that we don’t have to wait. I told her, I feel bad about that because I’m not that disabled…..anymore. I explained to her, this movie is about a way of life that I’ve been following for six months that took me off a walker and a cane. I continued to point out that I was sure there would be others that will need the help more than I. Plus, there is five of us and I am the only one with MS. She said, “My God, you don’t have to apologize about that. That’s exciting!” I explained its happening to people all over the world, some film themselves, like the man who films himself daily making gains, recently he got out of his wheelchair to do squats at the end of five months. It should be on the front page of newspapers all over the world, but its not. Don’t you think that’s weird?

I am again on what my friend fondly describes as my “Soap Box.” “Your on your soap box again, get off it.”, she interjects. That is a problem I have. Oh well. I am grateful for the help, that is gratifying, I just feel guilty. Matt Embry put up a picture of Living Proof stickers someone at the Toronto Festival made for him for people to wear. I think if stickers show up tomorrow, I’ll put one on my forehead.

 

Bonne Sante

 

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Hissy fits, dost not a cause help!

My day began with a visit to the Carpal Tunnel Surgeon who gave me an A+ on the healing. I re-iterated my decision to forgo the surgery for my left wrist, at least for now. He was sweet and said, “I am familiar with your case now, if you decide in a year to have it, just call me.” I liked that. I said, “Thank you, it came out great, although, I hated you that morning.” He laughed and said, “I know.” Its tough to work in the medical industry. I do respect our Doctors and Nurses. They take the brunt of an often thankless system. And when things are less than honest, they get blamed too, when in truth, most have no more power, than I. I’m over my hissy fit yesterday and onto productive solutions.

I had coffee after my appointment with a woman that I took Multiple Sclerosis Cognitive Behavioral Therapy with almost a year ago. I haven’t seen her since just before I began the Wahls Protocol. The last time she saw me, I was pushing a walker. Suffice it to say, she was amazed at my progress, from the weight loss to the walk with her across the street and through the grocery store, without a cane, never mind the walker. Everyday, I tell at least three people about my “miracle”. I do this for several reasons:

  • I have a duty to get the message out about this so that more people are given the same opportunity I have been given.
  • I am so grateful, I can’t shut up about it anyway.
  • I want to be one voice among many who demands change in the medical system, thereby causing rehabilitation to be the primary focus using these holistic methods for autoimmune illnesses.

In the mean time, we will need to be our own doctors and our own advocates. I can see why Dr. Wahls calls her followers “Wahls Warriors”. Its because this really is a battle of sorts. For maximum effectiveness, it is important that I keep level headed and not be the toddler in the room.

This Monday, I am going to see Living Proof. Can’t wait. I will give a full report on the documentary Tuesday. I read a suggestion given by someone in his review of Matt Embry’s Living Proof where he suggested that Matt sell “Living Proof” t-shirts and those of us who are “Living Proof” will buy them and wear them. Good one!

 

Bonne Sante

 

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