Possibilities

Imagery: I’ve prepared everything for my first day on my new job the night before. I set the alarm an hour and a half before work starts at 8 am. I don’t have far to travel, my job is close by. I need to do a good meditation and take my time getting ready. My job is not specific, it is rather an amalgamation of jobs that I could do well at, its sales, its people oriented, its managing day to day operations, its creative, its good pay, it has benefits, its not boring nor is is it routed to one spot within its building, it feeds my intellectual side, and most important it has purpose. That is where I see myself at the end of my first year on the Dr. Wahls Protocol – “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

I am not religious, but rather spiritual. You can be religious and spiritual, you can be religious and not be spiritual, likewise, you can be agnostic and be spiritual or you can be a staunch atheist and not be spiritual at all, on the other hand, I knew a man, a “Townie” from Charlestown, Boston. He was a tough old Irish man. He was also 100% atheist, a personal fact that he loved to yell from the roof tops every chance he got, yet at the same time, he was the most spiritual guy in the room. Because he was tapped into whatever it is we need to be tapped into. I can’t explain it any better than that, I have a dear friend, she’s the same way. The statement above came to me when I became open minded about seeking life’s lessons anywhere I am directed to seek them. A closed mind, shuts a lot of doors, whether its a closed mind against people, art, religion, social studies or science. I want to keep my mind as open as I can, lest I miss something important.

That open mind brought me to this passage when my self esteem was dirt. And it empowered me like no other. That was 23 years ago. Soon after discovering this statement, I learned that I had a gift for organizing events and in the next year managed several events successfully. I was inspired to start a sober festival, a multifaceted camping event with live music and workshops. The first year, we kept it to one day, it was a success, in that those who did attend raved about it. However, we budgeted for 500 and only 200 attended, meaning we took a significant loss. We worked hard that year to fund raise in the form of dances, dinners, grants, and flea markets, enough to get the event prepared for its second year, which was now three days and two nights. We did all that we could to be prepared, but still fear gripped me when it came time for tickets to begin selling. I went to our P.O. box everyday and there was nothing, then the first ticket order. On the sender address label on the envelope was a statement in italics, it said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” And all my fear melted away. In that moment, I knew we were going to be alright. We budgeted for 1,000 people attending and 1,500 came. We paid our debt and had the money necessary to set up the next year. That was 1997, the event is still running. I only stayed till 1998 before moving to Canada.

Several things happened, I stopped drinking and drugging two years before I stumbled upon that statement, I opened my mind, I worked very hard, and I believed that anything was possible if you work hard, and it was meant to be. Well, that’s how I feel about getting well, working a meaningful job, and driving again. I am working hard, my mind is open to the information, and I believe that if there is purpose, money or no money, Multiple Sclerosis, or no Multiple Sclerosis, even though I haven’t worked full time since 2004, I believe in the possibilities and will continue to work towards these goals, because I think its possible, because, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

 

Bonne Sante

 

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