She stepped out of the plane, thousands of feet in the air as the cold wind took her breath away, and jumped. That’s how I felt after a conversation with my disability office today. I have a prescription for a tens/em machine (electric muscle stimulation EMS) and requested if it was medically covered under my plan. I explained that I am on the Wahls Protocol and working to recover and rehabbing my drop foot is part of it. She told me, “Working to recover? I will back you all the way.” She can’t make the decision, but she can make the case for me. What frightened me was the admission that I am working to recover to my disability worker. I’ve been on disability since 2004 for the right reasons. I now have a way to recover and I am putting my all into it and for the first time, I can see myself one day going back to work successfully. Of course, this will take time, I first need to recover and for that I need to put all my energy into the Protocol. If I try biting off too much to soon, I will sabotage what I am doing. What was scary was the first physical act of committing verbally to an authority of my plan to recover. Its a concrete step towards going back to work, by not just saying it, but doing it. There it is, my heart is back in my mouth! Yikes! Well, we’ll do this as I try to do everything, one day at a time. It felt so good to hear her say, “I will back you up all the way.” She wants to hear more about Wahls. I hadn’t thought of it before, but as much as the medical society doesn’t want to hear about it, those dealing with the disabled, want to hear about it. It’s just so wonderful to hear a professional back me up 100% on this without a lot of balking. That’s refreshing.
On a daily eating note, I had breakfast out with a friend this morning. I had gluten free bread with butter on it. The first whole butter, and for that matter, dairy of any kind I’ve had in over 3 months and did I regret that. Horrible stomach cramps. An experience which will help me reconsider if I let my guard down again. The stupid thing is that this restaurant had better choices I could’ve made and I chose not to. But, that is what it is to be human. A mistake is not a mistake if you learn from it.
And I’m free, free fallin’
Yeah I’m free, free fallin’ – Tom Petty
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