Walking Miracle

I was a little down earlier today, unmotivated, stayed in pajamas. Maybe the gloomy weather today, not sure, or just tired. I found myself feeling a little depressed. But, today is Wednesday, Farmer’s Market day. The market is from 3 to 7 pm, I always go. I buy my greens there and whereas I finished off my last cup of baby kale this morning in my smoothie, hard as I tried, I couldn’t come up with a better plan then taking my walk over there. I needed greens and I needed my walk, especially in that mood. So, I got dressed and I marched over there. I chose to leave my leg brace for drop foot behind and wore my regular shoes. My thinking? I want to walk in a way that allows me to flex my foot. With the AFO, I am unable to bend my foot as one would when they walk because of a steel piece that inserts into the shoe that keeps your toe up when walking. I want to begin training my leg to walk as it once did, a little at a time, a step at a time. My left leg is stiff with spasticity (same leg), I am focusing on making my knee loosen up as I walk. Its a lot of thinking, but it helps. Its a beginning.

As I walk, my mood is already beginning to lift. I usually walk with my cane and the AFO, but for this I bring my walker, so I can hang the bag on it coming back. I thought, maybe I should leave the walker behind, but think better of it, I’m not ready to do that yet. I haven’t used the walker since last Wednesday’s trip to the Farmer’s Market. I walk the two blocks over and take my time with each booth, I talked with the woman selling fermented everything, have to learn how to do this, I took down the name of a book that she describes as her “bible”, called, “Mastering Fermentation”. This will be the next book I buy. In all I visited the Italian Chef with his sauces, the natural meats and fish man, the bone broth booth, and most important the truly organic greens I need. I spent $19 and bought a bag of spinach, arugula, basil, baby kale and four beef steak tomatoes.

I got what I came for and I begin to walk the two blocks back home. Halfway home, it dawns on me that my arms aren’t hurting. When I take the walker, my arms weaken because of the way I have to hold them slightly out when grasping the walker. I have attributed this too the three fusions in my neck, but today, I have learned otherwise, that in fact, the weakness has been MS. Having two neurological conditions, its hard to know which causes what. Last Wednesday, I had to keep switching arms and stopping to rest to take the pressure off my arms. When I realized that my arms were no longer weak in this position! I cried the rest of the way home. I can’t believe it! Daily, I see change. For one thing, six weeks ago, this walk was impossible, four weeks ago, I could do it only with a rest every half block with a sit down rest at the Farmer’s Market for 30 minutes before the walk home. I walked all that, without faltering, I only felt my left leg weakening the last half block from home and my arms stayed strong.

Suffice it to say, I am no longer feeling depressed!

Bon Sante

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One thought on “Walking Miracle

  1. That is amazing Robin. You are so determined. Most people just shy away from change because of fear and you are looking it right in the face! You are even brave enough to admit that some days feel overwhelming….and still you March on. What an inspiration!

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